depression
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On the 27 of August, I tried to kill myself. It was only my dissociation that made me survive.
This post comes with a strong trigger warning.
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A Poem: Living alone in a Lockdown
Living alone in a lock-down Isolation has a different meaning when it is something you spent most of your life doing Spent the first few months alive in an orphanage Too sick to be adopted Grief is in the marrow of that place
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How to cope with Covid-19 anxiety
Just mulling over life, the universe and everything, as one does whilst drinking wine and chatting with friends and thinking about the Lockdown that New Zealand has been placed into. I just asked a friend of mine who lives in Wellington who is a big walker, if in the next month if he could please…
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She remembers
She remembers She remembers some things Like dancing on the beach The wind in her hair The movement of her dress Her feet in the sand Your knee, which she gently touched Only for a moment Without your permission But it was enough, for her to remember That You care You have forgotten how to…
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Drowning
Drowning Drowning in emotions and feelings Lost all sense of direction as our compass broke in the storm Wanting to drown The parade is calling us, they are so loud It is loud, so loud all eleven can hear it Some weeks ago we all swam in the ocean of being heard by the State…
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I Am Still Here
I write that tile and have a tidal wave of emotions overwhelm me. I am only still here because nearly three weeks ago I was put back into the mental health system after being discharged over 9 years ago. I am on a new anti-depressant, sleeping pills, and Valium for anxiety. A couple of weeks…